My Biography
I was a "late-bloomer" and had many mixed emotions through my teenage years. I was embarrassed by my body; And secretly at night, I wished to God I could wake in the morning as a girl. Although I wanted to be female, I did not find myself attracted to boys, but preferred dating girls. So I'd hide these feelings. And when I became serious with a girlfriend, I had to explain why I looked more feminine than other boys. This added to the mystery that was me, but I was always too afraid of disclosing my inner most desire of becoming a woman and ultimately feeling I might be a lesbian. (My parents always assumed I was “gay”, turned out they were right… just not the “gay” they thought I was).
Late in my childhood years, I would experiment and pursue these desires by indulging in such female routines like shaving my body hair and fixing my eyebrows. Into my teenage years I would adorn myself in feminine fashions and styling my hair long; After all it was the 80's… glam was "in" and it wasn't so unusual. But secretly I always knew that these feelings ran deeper than I would ever actually let anyone know, at least until I was much older. And growing into my adulthood became such a struggle…
I can remember at a very young age, I desired to be a girl. And although neither of my parents encouraged this, I felt this inevitability. I was intrigued by the female identity, the fashions, the visual presentation, and how a girl behaves and how she feels... I preferred the feminine things. I didn’t fit in with the rest of the boys, because inside… I wanted to be just "one of the girls".
In my mid twenties, I decided on the journey I'd take with my life... it was time to act upon my aspirations and become true to myself. Like so many others, I was searching for my place in this world. My main goal in life is to live happily, productive, and to strive in making a difference. I endeavored to act responsibly and determine a way to make my “transformation” as less upsetting as possible to those around me. My reality needed their acceptance and support. And in my thirties, I underwent surgery in my birthplace of Miami. I was "re-born" as the woman I have always known myself to be…
I have lived as “Jessica” for a good portion of my life now. And through the path of my life I have loved and lost, all while raising my children who are teenagers now. And if there's one thing that I have learned through time... is that life is always changing....
